Thursday, March 12, 2009

Itiraf (Confession)


Usne kaha, “Kabhi fursat mein yeh bhi bataana ki tum kya sochti ho…”

Main raat bhar un alfaazon se bejhijak khelti rahi. Kayi soch apnaye, chand sawaalo se lar pari, kuchh ehsaason se to naraaz hokar zindagi bhar baat na karne ki kasam bhi kha li.

Par ziddi sawaal peecha kahan chorte? Saath chalte gaye, chalte gaye…..chaukathh pe pahuchkar tang aakar maine kaha “Thik hai, khamoshi ki zuban nahin samajhte ho to aaj sun hi lo. Bar bar nahin dahoraoongi..
Subah subah aankh khulte hi ek labz aa jata hai hothon par. Tum sochoge naam hi to hai. Tumhe kya pata ki ab mere liye to yehi nazm hai….
Kabhi khayalo mein kabhi khwabo mein yoon kho jaati hoon jaise mera ab duniya se koi vasta hi nahin. Tum kahoge sirf ek adhura khwab hi to hai. Tumhe kya maloom ki ab mere liye to yehi zindagi hai..
Shaam ke dhalte huye sannate ke saath chupke se kuchh anhahi baatein tumse kahe deti hoon. Tum samjhoge chand shabd hi to hai. Tumhe kya khabar ki mere liye to ab yehi mohabbat hai..”
Daheleez par ek sannata sa chaa gaya. Khamosh khare sawaalo ki taraf maine dabi si muskurahat ko chhupate huye poocha…” Ho gayi tasalli? Par tumhe kya laga, yeh sab main nahin batana chahti thhi?”

Humse na jeeta hai na jeetega koi, woh to hum jaanke khaa lete hain maate aksar…

16 comments:

  1. Kya baat hai! Jitni khubsurati se aap likhti hain, utne haseen apke khayalat hai...keep it up!

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  2. By Jove! You write so well in Hindi as well! Eta to janai chilo na. Aar koto shupto protibha aache ma tor?

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  3. wah wah...wah wah...kya baat hai!!!


    (kothaye lagey 'main aur meri tanhayee')????

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  4. Amar moner majhe je gaan baje sunte ki pao go
    Amar chokher pore abhash diye jokhono jao go
    Amar udash hridoy jokhon ashe bahir pane
    Apnake je dei dhora se sokolkhane
    Kochi pata prothom prate ki katha koye aalor sathe
    Amar moner apon katha bole je tao go

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  5. I am speechless ! Really don't know what to say or comment. The piece is simply fantastic.
    The rhythm and flow of the choicest words is simply amazing and it invokes the truest emotions of the human heart.

    Truly - this is a confession which every individual has to make at a certain point of time, and this is probably the most divine confession.

    Someone has aptly said "Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication".

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  6. एक चेहरे पे हमने अपने अक्स को देखा...
    शायद हमने अपने आप को देखा..
    वो रहे न रहे हमारे सामने
    उनके तस्सवुर में हमने अपने ज़मीर को देखा...

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  7. Jo dil mein hoti hain, zuban par nahi aata...

    These lines gave me this feeling only. No matter how much we try, there are certain very subtle feelings in life which can never be expressed in words.

    Few lines:


    "Ishq se tabiyat ne zist ka mazaa paayaa
    dard ki davaa paai, dard-be-davaa paayaa"

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  8. Ei lekha ta pore ar duto line o mone porlo di.

    "Bas ek zhizhak hain yehi haal-e-dil sunaane mein
    Ke tera zikra bhi aayegaa is fasaane mein"

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  9. Kya khub socha aur khub kaha. Kahaan chhupake rakkha tha khudko itne din? Khuda kare aap yoon hi likhti rahen.

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  10. You took me to a different world with you. How can you write so beautifully? Should seriously consider taking this as a profession if not in it already.

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  11. I once knew a little girl and she was full of life. When we parted ways, all I remembered was her pretty face and million dollar smile. I don't think she remembered me though. Years later, I saw her again...and found that little angel has turned not only into a beautiful woman of substance, but a prolific writer, a terrific actor, a graceful dancer, a thorough professional and yet managed to retain her innocence and purity. And I am left to wonder....how can a person be so versatile as this? Yes, my dear, you are Ananya..without a doubt.

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  12. u have gratudated from "wow" to "wah"....keep writing buddy...u simply rock!!!

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  13. "Main raat bhar un alfaazon se bejhijak khelti rahi. Kayi soch apnaye, chand sawaalo se lar pari, kuchh ehsaason se to naraaz hokar zindagi bhar baat na karne ki kasam bhi kha li".........just asadharan

    Prasnera pichu nilo sarata rat
    Sabdera elomelo chuye gelo hat
    Chupisare chand name buker bhetor
    Choukathe nischup sob uttor.

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  14. O My GOSH Ananya ! You wrote THAT !??
    You are wasting urself dear ! Tui seriously ektu professional dike chestaa kor ...
    Your canvas should be beyond...MUCH beyond a blog damnit !You have substance,poise,as well as a rich imagination. Most folks would kill for even one of them !
    Once again....Maan gaye !!
    12/10 !

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  15. khub shundor...very simple n yet so creative ....khub bhalo ananya...

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  16. Its amazing. Bahut dino bad kuch hindi mey pada,andar tak aawaz gayi...aur rooh ko chhoo gayi....

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